Gardening For The Soul

Four more days to go until the big day! Many people have been asking me how I feel, am I anxious, scared or what? I liken it to being pregnant – when the little line turned bright pink, my first thought was “holy crap, now I have to give birth”. But eight months later, I couldn’t wait to get it over and done with. So that’s where I am – ready to get on with it. I have known about this now since April, so it’s not quite the full pregnancy experience, but I am certainly giving birth to something new. Everyday I say to myself and ‘the girls’, this is the last Sunday (or whatever day it is) that we’ll be together. I thank them for all the sterling effort they’ve put in over the years and tell them that I am sending them on their way with love. I appreciate that this might sound bizarre to some people but so many of us do not love our bodies and this is my attempt to go in to this in a loving, peaceful way. I have been looking at before and after pictures and of course, some look better than others, but I am setting my expectations and visualizing the outcome I want.

The girls (my daughters in this case although the aforementioned set came too!) and I went away last weekend to Newport and it was a little like going away with two of Snow White’s dwarves, Sleepy and Grumpy. Victoria (16) just wanted to nap and Sarah (13) said no to everything I suggested. But in the end we found some compromise space and did all the usual things one does in Newport. I even managed to bribe them into coming with me to the flower show as it was in one of the mansions, Rose Cliff. The best thing about our bed and breakfast was a courtyard with a fountain, trees, flowers and chairs. I spent time out there reading whilst V painted and S read stuff of indeterminate origin on her iTouch! I was very sure it was stuff I might not like but my book was just so good! One great thing we did do was purchase matching Alex and Ani bracelets. The ones we bought have the Lotus flower on them and stand for love, connection and strength, all of which sound just wonderful to me. I was quite chuffed that V and S wanted to wear them, too and the icing on the cake was that a portion of the proceeds go to women’s charities.

And my healing circle on Monday was just amazing. The best thing for me was that everyone there picked a crystal, holding the meaning of the stone both for me and for themselves. I wished that I had written down who had what, so if you read this and are open to responding with the crystal you got and it’s meaning, that would be great. And a huge thank you to Selena and everyone who attended either in person or in spirit for sending me so much light and energy.

My last ladies parts’ test results came back this week and lo and behold, they were good – benign polyps. Dr Dick left me a message to call her back and she mentioned good test results. Even though I subsequently spoke to her, I have kept her message and listened to it a fair number of times, having had some of the opposite messages over the past few months. I am keeping the call so I can connect to the energy of what I want to hear EVERY time.

Interesting flower stories the next time I write – bet you can’t wait!

Love to all,
Amanda