Off to the hospital today (not that I haven’t been already three times this week!) for my third round. I had issues with my bilirubin last time which for those of you unfamiliar with such a thing, it’s produced from the gall bladder and functions with the liver. The Dr is telling me if it’s high again with my blood test from yesterday, then my chemo will be delayed. It’s all to do with cleansing the body of the drugs and they don’t want to over cook me. If that happens I’ll be wicked bummed as although I am not throwing a party over having chemo, today would make me 75% done with my final treatment on the 30th.
Have been doing OK at my end, but feeling very low key. This week sadness has come up for me, mostly around wanting to feel held and seen, like I need some good old fashioned mothering. I have been doing so well in my journey that my family goes about their lives and I have to be clear when I need something different. They have been wonderful with their response and Sarah and Victoria have even let me touch their hair! I have this thing about stroking their heads and smelling their hair when they’ve just washed it. I’ve always had the former but the latter since I lost my own and have nothing to smell!
So that my lovelies, is the skinny. If all of you out there could hold me in your thoughts and send me a little note or comment, plus good bilirubin energy, that would make my day.
Love to all
Amanda
You are so in my thoughts and I wish you lived closer — I’d let you rub my hair (ok, maybe that would be weird, and you should stick with your kids’ hair!)
Hope the numbers are good and you hit that 75% mark — but if not today, it will happen soon. Sending you positive thoughts. You are amazing!
Sending you lots of love my friend, along with the biggest virtual hug you can imagine!
Always reach out to us, please. As you say, you’ve been SO good that we all forget that no matter what, you still need support, reassurance, LOVE, pampering…
Please, Amanda, always keep me posted when you have a little window of time to meet for a cup of tea. I’d love to see you more often.
Close your eyes, and allow this crystal clear pink light to wrap you in an oval bubble/crystal ball. When in it, you are invincible and everything is possible.
I LOVE YOU, I admire you, you continue to amaze me through this journey ❤
Heading out for a run and will be thinking of you the whole while I plod along and sending you lots of love and a big hug through the air waves. Your posts are inspiring for the rest of us going about our daily lives and remind us about what is important. Thank you for that gift. xo
Wishing you mega good bilirubin energy and holding you with love. xoxo
I am with u in spirit!!!!
JMG
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Sending you warm, caring, and loving hugs. I’d let you stroke my hair any day!!! Wish I could give you a hug in person. Was in Boston yesterday, miss you when I pass your desk and you aren’t there. Keep your chin up. Xoxo
Hugging and loving you from a distance. Positive bilirubin vibes being sent your way. My hair is yours to do with as you please anytime!
XXOO
big warm loving hugs,Amanda. Stroking a cats fur sometimes helps me too.